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I gave you everything i could offer, and you just threw it all.
I trusted you, and you just lied to my face.
I put you in a pedestal, and you just set me aside.


Now I know who you really are
But why am i still in despair?
When would I ever go on?

Tsunami

You build up on something for a long time, invest all your assets and time and emotions and soul. And in just 1 day, everything crumbles down. Parang Japan lang at tsunami.

Heart Attack??

Fingers are shaking, body trembling.


Oh my God, i never thought this will happen to me. Everything  I have thought of you suddenly vanished. 


Honesty is all i asked. I never expected anything. Is it really that hard to give considering everything i have given?


Is it really very easy to throw everything away?


Tama nga naman ang kasabihang "time is gold". The very minute we ended it, you have found another beginning. 


The painful thing were realizing that I never knew you and you were never worth the risk. And its even more excruciating because I let it all happen.

Hormones

Today was an emotional Sunday. And I blame it all on the hormones.
I just hate the way you treat me now. If this is what friendship is to you, then I don't need it. I don't need you. You just wiped out 12 months by just 2 hours (and counting.) 


I just hate you now. Again, blame it all to my hormones.

Chicken Pie!

Mother wanted me to bake chicken pie and so, i did.


I used the recipe of croissant for the dough and chicken ala king for the filling. Though the product was acceptable, this was just a wrong move! haha Next time, I will just use the Chicken Pie recipe. 


Here is the finished product. 

Stuck.

Does hurting mean moving on? If it does, then can I just forget everything and go back to time where you never existed?

I never did regret all of it. But i just don't know what to do. I'm confused. I'm stuck. And i just want to go on. I thought i have, but then why does it hurt a lot???

I thought i have passed all the pain, but why does it hurt like the first time? I thought I am ready and am moving on, but why am i stuck now??

On the road to recovery

The last 6 months was a drag for me. Except for the adventures and meet-ups with my friends, I have been bored to death.

"Bored to death"- now I know what that means and how it feels!

To conquer boredom, I have been learning new recipes and playing Sudoku! how loser is that? haha! But this is the perfect time for me to find myself and start anew. I need a boost! I need adventure. I have realized, I want to be free! I want to travel, I want to just spend time hanging somewhere else other than home. Because that is who i am- I am adventurous.

I have also decided to go back to school. I am naturally competitive and although i am tamad, my drive to learn new things is creeping up to me. and i think this is the only way i can achieve what i want and better myself.

I will be on the road to recovery.