:)

OMG, thank YOU for my friends =..) I'm am truly overwhelmed. They may be far, but they always look out for me :..) I want to cry!!! hahahaha Thank You, G :)

24

24. haha Akin to Adele's 19 and 21... gaya gaya!!!


24- I am officially old. haha Last year, i couldn't even celebrate being 23 simply because i felt old. A year has passed, but now, i am more excited to face life. I am a year older, a year wiser. And realizing that i should be happy for whatever i have now; for the people who care for me. It has been heart warming knowing they have my back always. Thank you, friends! You know who you are. :)


I have realized that for the past years, certain changes have been occurring in my life. At 20, I became a CPA; at 21, i worked (yeah, it's such a big deal for me); at 22, i fell; at 23, i was broken; and now that i will be turning 24, i am ready to face a new path, new challenges, new things! 


I am excited! And i only have the One to be thankful for... Thank YOU so much. I thought i wouldn't have done it, but i did. And it was all because of You! Now, i am ready for whatever You have to shower upon me, be it bad or good. Thank You, G! :) 


Surprise me, wow me! With Your grace, I am ready :)

Strawberry cheesecake

Girly

It's hard to be a girl- i'm sure any girl would agree. First, the female structure is more complex- leading to the second point, more maintenance on our daily endeavors. 

Regardless, I love it! I love being a girl and all its complications. :)

Thankful

     In my 23 years of existence, I have never been a religious person. I don't know, but i love Math and Science more than my C.E. classes during my elementary and hs days. Do not get me wrong, it is something that i am NOT proud of. I guess i just have a different belief of being religious. 

What is that belief? I think being religious is doing good deeds in one's daily life. Being the example and following His good deeds is being religious. 

I remember once my CE teacher in highschool said that not going to the church every Sunday is a sin. And until now, i've been asking the million dollar question: WHY??? 

Tell me to go to church every Sunday, tell me to pray the rosary everyday... Aren't those merely routines? And besides, I know a lot of people who go to church constantly and pray the rosary everyday, but they are the ones who commit unreligious things. I may have this weird belief, but i don't question those who are "religious." 

     However, no matter how unreligious i may be, I can confidently say that I AM FAITHFUL. I do believe in God and in all His ways. Faith for me is my relationship with Him. I may at times, miss to pray and speak with Him, but i make sure that whenever we talk, i keep it spiritual and sincere. 

It has been said in the Bible that God loves all His children equally. But I believe that He loves me more, and i know that He favors me! (HAHAHAHA!!! AKO NA ANG FEELER) - JOKE!!! :) But seriously, I really feel His presence in my life every now and then. It just amazes me when I think of doing something, and I end up with the opposite. Then i realize, the opposite is the good and right thing for me. Is amazes me that He let it all happen smoothly for me. Isn't that just an amazing and good feeling??

There are times when I lose faith and question the events in my life. But He never fails to amaze me. He makes me feel safe. Lord, I am a great fan. I am your tool to fulfill your purpose. I will always be thankful. 

ImPerfect.

Someone once told me that I don't need to be perfect. And at that time, i wanted to slap that person and say, "do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth?" HAHA. DUH. I KNOW THAT!!!

Knowing myself, I am far from perfect. And i don't intend to be one. I simply want to be the best that i can be. 

Best I can be. How do i even do that? So that is what i have to find out... 

The art of Letting Go...

I have read somewhere that letting go is letting things be. 

The excerpt goes something like:

"When you find yourself attached, remember that ‘letting go’ is not ‘getting rid of’ or ‘throwing away’. If I’m holding onto this clock and you say, ‘Let go of it!’, that doesn’t mean ‘throw it out’. I might think that I have to throw it away because I’m attached to it, but that would just be the desire to get rid of it. We tend to think that getting rid of the object is a way of getting rid of attachment. But if I can contemplate attachment, this grasping of the clock, I realise that there is no point in getting rid of it - it’s a good clock; it keeps good time and is not heavy to carry around. The clock is not the problem. The problem is grasping the clock. So what do I do? Let it go, lay it aside - put it down gently without any kind of aversion. Then I can pick it up again, see what time it is and lay it aside when necessary."

It is time to let IT go. And letting it go also means embracing one's 

present situation, 

one's fate. And so, i shall. 

The only thing hindering me from embracing this world is the experience of it all and realizing how good it is to be free. And the only thing failing me to let go, is the resistance to embrace that world, a world different from which i long for. 

It feels like I am nothing but a prisoner in this golden cage. But it is time to love this "haven" and embrace this life because I belong here.