Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Unfaithfulness

There are a lot of things i don't understand in this world. One of those things is Infidelity. 

I do have issues when it comes to third-party relationships. As early as Grade 3, I have been exposed to unfaithfulness. I remembered locking myself in the bathroom and thinking how i could burn my father's mistress' house. I was young then; i didn't know where she lived. But i only have one thing in mind- burning her house down. Though i am not from a broken family, seeing my mother in pain, not just once, but countless times, I promised myself I will never be that home/relationship-wrecking person.  Aside from it being an imoral act, i know how hard it is to be caused by such pain. Thus, I ask the lord not to put me in that position.

Don't get me wrong, I do not judge people because they are paramours, but I just don't get why people are just do damn selfish and insensitive. Break up with him first you know before you go into something new with someone. It may hurt, but at least, you respected him by not two-timing and letting him look like a fool.

They say, "Love knows no boundaries." But shouldn't Love be kind and good, not just to the couple, but for those people around them? Love should not go beyond what is right and wrong for it to be kind and sincere, not just for the people around, but for the couple, and most especially God. 

Anyway, i wouldn't want to understand it, because understanding it would mean i have to be in that position. And i wouldn't want to be in that position. So i guess, there are just selfish people in this world. I'm not saying i'm not selfish. I can be selfish, but not to the point of stepping on other people. 

Point is: Live a life where you don't step on other people. 

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Because I let you In.

Now i know why i'm having a hard time letting go. 

I have only a few friends- my highschool friends, college friends, friends from work. I am the type of person who doesn't easily let people in. And if i do, there are certain levels of where they stand. It hurts because i gave you access to everything. You had the superuser/root access. I opened up my life to you. And now, i'm having a hard time letting go. 

But in time, I will be okay. 

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

The End

There are a lot of things i want to say to you. But it doesn't and will not matter to you anymore. So i will just have to keep it all to myself and bury them as time goes by.


You are the first; and I used to believe, you are the greatest. I used to think of you as my soulmate. Thank you for everything. 


Farewell.