If you can turn back time, will you?

It takes a simple post on Facebook to disturb you- "If you can turn back time, will you?"


The first thing i thought of: In my 24 years of existence, as i recall the events in my life, I only have one regret, one which took place on 03/10/10. If I can turn back time, I'd go back to that day and take that chance away. I could have saved myself from all the torment. No matter how i plead for it, good memories may no longer be redeemed for they have been buried by cruelty.


But looking at the big picture, without that episode, i would have been the same person- closed and boring. It has taught me a lot indeed. It has changed me, for the better i believe. 


As i ponder on life, experience is good. Cliche as it may sound, it is the best teacher. And from my point of view, one should experience hell to identify what heaven is. Further, change is good; we learn to adapt for if we don't, we'd end up perished, but more importantly, we get to have a different experience, one that teaches us what to do and what not to do, a.k.a LEARN.


Thus, on second thought, if i could turn back time, i wouldn't change anything. 

My Last Goodbye

It is just sad that after everything i've done to you, this is what you do to me in return. I was really hurt. Grabe. You were the last person i thought of who could do that to me. I really thought highly of you. I was there at your lowest, and during the time at my lowest, you even step on me further. You told me yourself how i helped you on how you changed your perspective in life, even your friend did. Is that how you repay help? Just imagine. And i had to let it all go just like that. The person whom i thought of, is completely the opposite. I don't know what i've done to you for you to treat me that way. But i had to let it all go. 


I'm telling you this cause i never had the chance to... You never gave me one. Thank you.


And when the right time comes, when you have answers to my questions, please tell me cause i would really like to know. Thank you for the lessons. And now, i can say this sincerely, God bless you... 

:)

OMG, thank YOU for my friends =..) I'm am truly overwhelmed. They may be far, but they always look out for me :..) I want to cry!!! hahahaha Thank You, G :)

24

24. haha Akin to Adele's 19 and 21... gaya gaya!!!


24- I am officially old. haha Last year, i couldn't even celebrate being 23 simply because i felt old. A year has passed, but now, i am more excited to face life. I am a year older, a year wiser. And realizing that i should be happy for whatever i have now; for the people who care for me. It has been heart warming knowing they have my back always. Thank you, friends! You know who you are. :)


I have realized that for the past years, certain changes have been occurring in my life. At 20, I became a CPA; at 21, i worked (yeah, it's such a big deal for me); at 22, i fell; at 23, i was broken; and now that i will be turning 24, i am ready to face a new path, new challenges, new things! 


I am excited! And i only have the One to be thankful for... Thank YOU so much. I thought i wouldn't have done it, but i did. And it was all because of You! Now, i am ready for whatever You have to shower upon me, be it bad or good. Thank You, G! :) 


Surprise me, wow me! With Your grace, I am ready :)

Strawberry cheesecake

Girly

It's hard to be a girl- i'm sure any girl would agree. First, the female structure is more complex- leading to the second point, more maintenance on our daily endeavors. 

Regardless, I love it! I love being a girl and all its complications. :)

Thankful

     In my 23 years of existence, I have never been a religious person. I don't know, but i love Math and Science more than my C.E. classes during my elementary and hs days. Do not get me wrong, it is something that i am NOT proud of. I guess i just have a different belief of being religious. 

What is that belief? I think being religious is doing good deeds in one's daily life. Being the example and following His good deeds is being religious. 

I remember once my CE teacher in highschool said that not going to the church every Sunday is a sin. And until now, i've been asking the million dollar question: WHY??? 

Tell me to go to church every Sunday, tell me to pray the rosary everyday... Aren't those merely routines? And besides, I know a lot of people who go to church constantly and pray the rosary everyday, but they are the ones who commit unreligious things. I may have this weird belief, but i don't question those who are "religious." 

     However, no matter how unreligious i may be, I can confidently say that I AM FAITHFUL. I do believe in God and in all His ways. Faith for me is my relationship with Him. I may at times, miss to pray and speak with Him, but i make sure that whenever we talk, i keep it spiritual and sincere. 

It has been said in the Bible that God loves all His children equally. But I believe that He loves me more, and i know that He favors me! (HAHAHAHA!!! AKO NA ANG FEELER) - JOKE!!! :) But seriously, I really feel His presence in my life every now and then. It just amazes me when I think of doing something, and I end up with the opposite. Then i realize, the opposite is the good and right thing for me. Is amazes me that He let it all happen smoothly for me. Isn't that just an amazing and good feeling??

There are times when I lose faith and question the events in my life. But He never fails to amaze me. He makes me feel safe. Lord, I am a great fan. I am your tool to fulfill your purpose. I will always be thankful.