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I know i've said that i will try not to be angry anymore. But i can't seem to stop the hurt from coming back, over and over again.
Its just not fair. When you're there, all happy; i'm here, crying all over again, just like the first time. I don't want and am not asking for you to live the sorry and sad life. But am i really not worth the truth? You could've saved me from all the pain i'm having right now, but you didn't. And sorry is just not enough.


I do not want to question God, but it makes me ask, do i really deserve this?  I know i'm not the perfect person anyone can have and i know i have a lot of flaws, but do i really deserve all this pain i'm feeling right now? Ever since, I've been trying to live a fair life. I am not perfect, but i've been living a straight life- A life where i believe i've been understanding, generous and sensitive to others. And this is what i get? 


Everything i've done to you, pain is what you repay me.  And i question myself, is that all that i'm worthy of?


I just cant stop myself from being angry. Not with anything else but for causing me this much pain.